After Jacob's death, Karen created this blog to record insights in her grief journey. I would periodically write my insights on notes posted to my Facebook page. We feel it would be best served if we combined our efforts so I am beginning the process of copying those notes to this blog. They won't be in chronological order but I will put the original date on each one.
Today is Jacob's birthday. He would have been twenty-three. We will never know what he'd be doing or where he would be today had he had the opportunity. Wherever he would have been, he would be helping people because that was his nature. Wherever he would have been, he would have been having fun with friends because wherever he was he made friends and enjoyed their company.
But today, March 11, 2011, we grieve with the thought that those are only dreams of what would have been but never will be. Today we can only comfort ourselves with memories of Jacob. Memories of being in Philadelphia and being present at his entrance into this world. Memories of being gripped by fears what may happen as doctors try to perform miracles through life-giving surgeries.
We will continue throughout this day, remembering events in Jacob's life ...watching him play T-ball with a flak jacket on to protect his heart ...joking about the scars on his body and creating the story that they were the result of a shark attack (thus the college tag-name of "Shark Bait") ...the minister/father's opportunity to baptize his son ...watching him perform in community and school plays ...family vacations to Ridgecrest ...celebrating with him at summer camp when he won MVP on his flag football team (yes, Jacob actually played football) ...being Boy camper of the week ...running into Sasquatch on a Washington mountainside ...the memories go on and on, mingled with laughs, smiles, and tears.
So today we plant two dogwood trees in Jacob's memory - a white flowered one and a red flowered one - though we will never need the trees to help us remember him. He will always be with us ... he will never be forgotten ... he will always be remembered .... he will always be missed ... and he will always be loved!
Happy birthday, Jacob! We love you!!!
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